I said, "My whole past is gone. And it's something I try to hold onto so tightly because it's the only thing that's certain, you know?" He said, "No. The only things certain are change and God's love."
He's always been good at telling me what I need to hear. There are certain moments in which I can't accept reality, and that was one of them. A close friend of nearly 5 years had just told me that he didn't want me in his life anymore. He had been persuaded against me and I was hurt by everyone involved. It takes a lot to get to me, but that did the trick. I was not okay.
This is where Jared brings me back around. We have quite a story of our own. God brings people together with the most perfect timing and it amazes me whenever I look back on my life. Jared was my first real best friend, the first person who tried and succeeded in really getting to know me. That was several years ago now and he moved from living 6 hours away from me to across the ocean. We faded apart, then went over a year without talking and when we began again, it was forced and awkward so we gave up. We saw each other while he was in the U.S. for a few weeks, then went back to our silence.
He started a conversation as I was having a breakdown and told me exactly what I needed to hear. I was crying and he made me laugh and reminded me that change is certain and God's love is certain but God's love doesn't change. It was so encouraging at exactly the right time. Even though we aren't close anymore, he let me know he cares and that means a lot.
It's just so nice to know that I do have real friends. There are old friends who still love me. I have new friends who are genuine and a heart that somehow is able to trust again, even though I fear the pain of rejection. For a long time I was unable to trust anyone new, but I'm becoming myself again. I'm remembering what it's like to learn someone and love them. An ending is a new beginning and a new beginning is a blessing. My life is looking up.
He's always been good at telling me what I need to hear. There are certain moments in which I can't accept reality, and that was one of them. A close friend of nearly 5 years had just told me that he didn't want me in his life anymore. He had been persuaded against me and I was hurt by everyone involved. It takes a lot to get to me, but that did the trick. I was not okay.
This is where Jared brings me back around. We have quite a story of our own. God brings people together with the most perfect timing and it amazes me whenever I look back on my life. Jared was my first real best friend, the first person who tried and succeeded in really getting to know me. That was several years ago now and he moved from living 6 hours away from me to across the ocean. We faded apart, then went over a year without talking and when we began again, it was forced and awkward so we gave up. We saw each other while he was in the U.S. for a few weeks, then went back to our silence.
He started a conversation as I was having a breakdown and told me exactly what I needed to hear. I was crying and he made me laugh and reminded me that change is certain and God's love is certain but God's love doesn't change. It was so encouraging at exactly the right time. Even though we aren't close anymore, he let me know he cares and that means a lot.
It's just so nice to know that I do have real friends. There are old friends who still love me. I have new friends who are genuine and a heart that somehow is able to trust again, even though I fear the pain of rejection. For a long time I was unable to trust anyone new, but I'm becoming myself again. I'm remembering what it's like to learn someone and love them. An ending is a new beginning and a new beginning is a blessing. My life is looking up.
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